There is a lot of time, but seldom enough for writing and thus, in due course, for updating this weblog – or so it would seem. Still, I am not going to deactivate it, although I was shocked when I noticed that my last post dates from the end of June 2014. I have not been working on anything specific over the past couple of months, since I have been busy teaching and writing a paper long overdue.
I also removed a link, namely that to Ariana Grande’s YouTube channel. I did this because I am disappointed in the way her work and music have developed. I do not care about rumours about her person, but I do care about the music, and quite frankly, I think it has become shallow. I used to have great hopes for her because of her voice, but her music has gone in the wrong direction for my personal taste.
For the future, I hope I shall be able to work on short stories and poems again, including their publication on this weblog.
‘I feel lost inside my own skin’, I wrote.
It is not like a prison –
I am just all over the place –;
not like ashes scattered to the wind –
I just extend indefinitely.
I cannot get a hold of anything –
it keeps floating
like ethereal china
in an endless void.
All the people in the world,
with all their lives,
with all their deaths,
with all their words,
with all their silence,
with all their promises,
with all their oaths,
with all their dreams,
with all their nightmares,
with all their deeds,
with all their apathy,
with all their gains,
with all their losses,
Everything is destined to go to waste in the end,
sooner or later,
without question, without doubt.
Only our denial makes it appear different –
as though anything were worth our while.
And when I look into your eyes,
I see you at the end of time:
We are worlds apart.
And when I look into your heart,
I see your doom.
I see your doom approaching.